why?

bet you you wish it was yours
bet you'd give it all away
to have it once
bet youd wash it all away
just to be like that just once
bet ud hold ur breath till the purple spreads
just to hold her once again!

by now if ur not clear im talking about love
theres classes for ppl like you!
for ur parents...you know theres drugs for kids like urs?
anyway just wanted to put it out there
wat is it with ppl and wanting/needing to be inlove/loved!
i mean sure its a fucking awesum feeling i get that!
but wats the rush to be owned or own sumone im 28 in 23 days and and currently in the longest single spell ive had since i was 14 seriously i shit u not me and Rachel split jan 2004 ive had one semi serious relationship since! but every time i get close to commitment two things pop into my head and its two feelings one i miss the other id kill never to have to feel again!
obviously being in love i miss it if u don't u obviously haven't felt it! no shit its awesum!
the other is that lil thing ur heart does when it finally hits u that u know its over and shes gone! this time for good!
and im serious well at least for me the later is the reason ive never been able to commit to the former...call me a pussy call me whatever the god damn fucking hell u want (im deaf there isnt an insult i haven't heard..see the irony) but being in love again falling for sumone again sacres the right royal absolute living god damn fuck outa me just because theres that off chance that my heart mite just break again!
so tell me why it is ppl these days are hell bent on love or destruction and why it is ppl cant just be happy till they know it is the one why do they have to chase kick punch cry roll around on the ground like a drunken two yr old on an acid trip to have that feeling for sumone if there not even sure it is the one?
anyway thats my question for ya!
let me know!
i mite be broken
i mite be dysfunctional
but Im kep
and your so not:)
peace
x