bet you you wish it was yours
bet you'd give it all away
to have it once
bet youd wash it all away
just to be like that just once
bet ud hold ur breath till the purple spreads
just to hold her once again!
by now if ur not clear im talking about love
theres classes for ppl like you!
for ur parents...you know theres drugs for kids like urs?
anyway just wanted to put it out there
wat is it with ppl and wanting/needing to be inlove/loved!
i mean sure its a fucking awesum feeling i get that!
but wats the rush to be owned or own sumone im 28 in 23 days and and currently in the longest single spell ive had since i was 14 seriously i shit u not me and Rachel split jan 2004 ive had one semi serious relationship since! but every time i get close to commitment two things pop into my head and its two feelings one i miss the other id kill never to have to feel again!
obviously being in love i miss it if u don't u obviously haven't felt it! no shit its awesum!
the other is that lil thing ur heart does when it finally hits u that u know its over and shes gone! this time for good!
and im serious well at least for me the later is the reason ive never been able to commit to the former...call me a pussy call me whatever the god damn fucking hell u want (im deaf there isnt an insult i haven't heard..see the irony) but being in love again falling for sumone again sacres the right royal absolute living god damn fuck outa me just because theres that off chance that my heart mite just break again!
so tell me why it is ppl these days are hell bent on love or destruction and why it is ppl cant just be happy till they know it is the one why do they have to chase kick punch cry roll around on the ground like a drunken two yr old on an acid trip to have that feeling for sumone if there not even sure it is the one?
anyway thats my question for ya!
let me know!
i mite be broken
i mite be dysfunctional
but Im kep
and your so not:)
peace
x
Monday, June 30, 2008
Monday, May 19, 2008
just so you know
todays been a wierd day but not for the reasons ive exspected its 1:40 am and sumone i havent spoken to in ages just added me to face book and i know now ur probably thinking no0b or nerd.. but no it got me thinking bbout a lot of things and about a lot of ppl! and about how much i miss ppl shane mandy julie may they rest in peace
jade cowboy eliza hayley bill ppl who i was once close to but for several reasons and for a couple no reason at all have drifted sadly apart!
this blog isnt intended to make anyone for guilty just to let those who i know and who know me but who i havent had much of a chance to catch up with lately know that i still love them and miss them miss teh highs the lows the lows teh sunday morn 3 am scat chats
for jade my princess my crazy syco bitch of a girlfriend ;) i miss u babe:) my fone be home soon:P
for cowboy the random ness of being in a room with sumone that could infuriate a room without even realising
eliza bitch one day ill spoon ur eyes out till that day u'l always be my lil sister!
bill theres noone so racialy confused as u man keep the hate or is that faith?
and last but not least
hayley the gurl with the broken smile who'd lay hurt like a million broken hearts but lay it all down just for a friend to be happy! i miss you i miss u all!
this is by no means all of my friends and teh ones i havent mentioned here its because i talk to ur dumbasses daily dont sook!
BUT that doesnt mean i dont love u!
for all my friends and my family ty for ur love suport understand help abuse random fone calls and texts knocking on my window at 3 am to tell me u need sumone to drink with...u know who u are asshole! my lifts my comments but most of all ty u for making sure i stay afloat to help bring up the two most beautiful things in the world my sons!
my friends i thank u all:)
jade cowboy eliza hayley bill ppl who i was once close to but for several reasons and for a couple no reason at all have drifted sadly apart!
this blog isnt intended to make anyone for guilty just to let those who i know and who know me but who i havent had much of a chance to catch up with lately know that i still love them and miss them miss teh highs the lows the lows teh sunday morn 3 am scat chats
for jade my princess my crazy syco bitch of a girlfriend ;) i miss u babe:) my fone be home soon:P
for cowboy the random ness of being in a room with sumone that could infuriate a room without even realising
eliza bitch one day ill spoon ur eyes out till that day u'l always be my lil sister!
bill theres noone so racialy confused as u man keep the hate or is that faith?
and last but not least
hayley the gurl with the broken smile who'd lay hurt like a million broken hearts but lay it all down just for a friend to be happy! i miss you i miss u all!
this is by no means all of my friends and teh ones i havent mentioned here its because i talk to ur dumbasses daily dont sook!
BUT that doesnt mean i dont love u!
for all my friends and my family ty for ur love suport understand help abuse random fone calls and texts knocking on my window at 3 am to tell me u need sumone to drink with...u know who u are asshole! my lifts my comments but most of all ty u for making sure i stay afloat to help bring up the two most beautiful things in the world my sons!
my friends i thank u all:)
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
death of a necessary evil
was a rainy dreary day in ole Brisbane town!
a man walked alone under his umbrella
wen suddenly a truck raced past water splashing the man
dealing him a nasty blow freezing him in time like a fat
kid who's just found out he must ride a treadmill!
as the man walks with a grizzly determination he dripping with fear.....and water....
he checks his pocket... he pulls it out and looks down and he realises it has been the death of a necessary evil
he realises that he has lost his third phone in 6 months Wat a fuck Sukey day......
I'm Kep Ur the world
peace out
in a life full of fading lights,
and shattered days,
on heart breaking nights,
and dispassionate stays,
wen they've all walked away,
and there's blood upon Ur hands,
Ur caught up in Ur grief,
and in your arm destroying ways,
broken hearts just never mend,
and Ur spiraling down on days,
you look at Ur life, how shit,
and know that there were better ways,
to end it all in that heart wrenching moment,
and see that nothing was ever wrong but never right either!.
a man walked alone under his umbrella
wen suddenly a truck raced past water splashing the man
dealing him a nasty blow freezing him in time like a fat
kid who's just found out he must ride a treadmill!
as the man walks with a grizzly determination he dripping with fear.....and water....
he checks his pocket... he pulls it out and looks down and he realises it has been the death of a necessary evil
he realises that he has lost his third phone in 6 months Wat a fuck Sukey day......
I'm Kep Ur the world
peace out
in a life full of fading lights,
and shattered days,
on heart breaking nights,
and dispassionate stays,
wen they've all walked away,
and there's blood upon Ur hands,
Ur caught up in Ur grief,
and in your arm destroying ways,
broken hearts just never mend,
and Ur spiraling down on days,
you look at Ur life, how shit,
and know that there were better ways,
to end it all in that heart wrenching moment,
and see that nothing was ever wrong but never right either!.
Monday, May 12, 2008
some of the collective thoughts
faded
as the time and days pass us by
as i sit and wonder wat could have been
as i shatter and cry
was it u i should have seen?
as i asked u why
as my head dropped over i started to lean
as she smiled her smile its intent so sly
was it really u i should have seen?
as i lay on ur shoulder i start to cry
u talk again uve always been so keen
as she breaks my heart with yet another lie
i realise it was you i realy should have been with!
signed
the blood flows into my eyes
as my mind walks off with butterflies
these should be times i enjoy
not the ones i fite and denies!
the evil floods into my mind
this hate for u i cant leave behind
so i sit in my own blood all but resigned
is it time to leave now i know this can never be mine?
i sit here as my life is refined!
as i hate u for the way im defined!
please remove ur hand from my heart
and your name from my arm u signed.....
hell
He cut a lonely figure standing in hell,
The only man with his heart in his handz,
The love once shared gone for good,
Stolen by his ignorance,
Suported by hiz Stupidity!
He cutz a lonely figure on top of his hell,
His heart in his handz surounded but alone!
The love once shared dripz like blood from an open wound!
he cutz a lonely figure this man alone in hell,
The grief for the broken pieces of the heart he held
and gurl he holdz in his head.
your man
Dont wana be the one to break u heart
Neva wana be the man all alone
But i guess we kno from the start......
Neva wana be the guy that walkz away
Neva guna be the boy that takez it all from u!
But i guess we alwayz knew it wouldnt be today.
Im neva guna b the guy that runz thru the fieldz but,
I alwayz wana be the ur man and by ur side,
I guess the time has come for u to make ur choicez,
just let me be the man who shares ur life!
for dongle
one day to hold u high
a life that i must save
one day to run life dry
a life i must move
one day to save ur cry
a happy memory i must erase
one day to make sur u wont die
so i can hold u in my life!
ok thats it for now
im kep your the world
peace out
as the time and days pass us by
as i sit and wonder wat could have been
as i shatter and cry
was it u i should have seen?
as i asked u why
as my head dropped over i started to lean
as she smiled her smile its intent so sly
was it really u i should have seen?
as i lay on ur shoulder i start to cry
u talk again uve always been so keen
as she breaks my heart with yet another lie
i realise it was you i realy should have been with!
signed
the blood flows into my eyes
as my mind walks off with butterflies
these should be times i enjoy
not the ones i fite and denies!
the evil floods into my mind
this hate for u i cant leave behind
so i sit in my own blood all but resigned
is it time to leave now i know this can never be mine?
i sit here as my life is refined!
as i hate u for the way im defined!
please remove ur hand from my heart
and your name from my arm u signed.....
hell
He cut a lonely figure standing in hell,
The only man with his heart in his handz,
The love once shared gone for good,
Stolen by his ignorance,
Suported by hiz Stupidity!
He cutz a lonely figure on top of his hell,
His heart in his handz surounded but alone!
The love once shared dripz like blood from an open wound!
he cutz a lonely figure this man alone in hell,
The grief for the broken pieces of the heart he held
and gurl he holdz in his head.
your man
Dont wana be the one to break u heart
Neva wana be the man all alone
But i guess we kno from the start......
Neva wana be the guy that walkz away
Neva guna be the boy that takez it all from u!
But i guess we alwayz knew it wouldnt be today.
Im neva guna b the guy that runz thru the fieldz but,
I alwayz wana be the ur man and by ur side,
I guess the time has come for u to make ur choicez,
just let me be the man who shares ur life!
for dongle
one day to hold u high
a life that i must save
one day to run life dry
a life i must move
one day to save ur cry
a happy memory i must erase
one day to make sur u wont die
so i can hold u in my life!
ok thats it for now
im kep your the world
peace out
A start
so i need to start sumwhere! so heres where it is im watching footy highlights from a game i know my team lost! im drinking a beer im sure would taste a hole lot better ten degrees cooler and im on my way to a hangover, on the brite side of life im getting drunk im watching footy anddddd i have tomoro off work! wat more could a man ask for? ok so we've established im happy! most of my blogs will be whinging about something no one but me cares about... or on issues that even i dont give a shit about! but thru it there will be random posts on how my kids are doing at school some of them will feature wat others liek to call poems i dont call em poems to me there more like a collection of thoughts that fell together in my head! they my not always make sense to you! but in my head they do anyway thats enough for day one! im kep your the world peace out
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